Being Mommy

Wednesday, May 24, 2017

Someone recently asked me if I was a mommy blogger. I'm not, obviously. Yet, I've been thinking about this space and why I haven't been coming here recently. Part of it is time; with two kids I have none. Even with an early-ish bedtime, I'm exhausted by 9 o'clock and there are chores to do. Plus, writing is emotionally difficult. It takes effort; effort I'm unwilling to expend after a long day. I'm not a morning person, but I find myself unable to go back to sleep after Laila's 3:30/4:30/5:30 a.m. feed. If I do get back to sleep, I'm usually up again at 6:30 a.m. which isn't exactly late anyway.

It's also the kids; if my son sees the computer, he asks (exceptionally sweetly), "Can I play with your computer, Mommy?" I simply melt when he calls me 'Mommy'. For so long all he said was 'Daddy' and he still clings to his father most of the time.

I shouldn't complain; I'm not really even trying to complain. It's mostly excuses I suppose. If it was important, I'd do it, right? That doesn't really explain the never-ending to-do list in my phone, but I suppose I could put a session of writing on it.

It would be far easier if I didn't also hate my computer so much. After my old MacBook expired, it was more practical to run a Windows platform so I could also remotely connect to my office. I should have bought a new Mac with a Windows option. I may still. This computer is so irritating. It has very little memory and only one USB slot, so even connecting external storage is difficult. Plus, isn't the point of a small laptop to be, well small? You start hanging shit off of it and it's no longer practical. Plus the battery is practically non-existent.

Maybe someone could help me port this domain over to Wordpress. It's not as simply as the internet makes it sound, since I purchased it when it was directly linked to Blogger and seem to have no ability to connect to my account to change the domain mapping. It's such a frustrating mess.

The end result is, wherever this domain ends up, I should be here more. I should write more. It's good for the soul.

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